Days have passed
and nights of unending sharp blades pierce my head.
Spinning deeply like wounds of flashbacks
that hasn’t been mended.
I lost my sense of joy and initiative actions.
I just wanted to feel the simplicity of life.
Checking what the world would do
without me making the first move.
Pleasing people doesn’t
make sense to me anymore.
I lost a part of me that extends a part of my soul.
I lost the love I have been trying to give.
Because I realized that,
You could never receive the exact love
It would always be the love that
they wanted to give you whole heartedly.
They say, happiness begins with you
and it is not dependent from others.
Once you find your happiness,
and let go of your suffering,
it would be living in a fulfulling life.
A life that you deserve.
A life that you own.
A life that you should be living.
You shouldn’t be living in a shallow world
where traditions and bloodlines are necessities.
If you are suffering from a toxic environment that poisons your good heart,
then you will not fully grow.
You will live a lifetime that easily withers.
A life that is full of walls with hatred and criticisms.
Try to jump out of that zone.
If you think that the outer world is more safer mentally than your standard zone,
then its time to be free and be more comfortable living in a zone you own.
There would always be someone who understands.
There is someone who connects with your soul;
not just merely by obligations and responsibilities.
There is someone who could see the brightest spot inside of your darkest room.
There is someone who loves you without taking the first move.
There’s this kind of love that is mutual.
There’s this kind of love who would be worried when you walk away.
There’s this kind of love who thinks on your own behalf rather than
what other people would say.
There’s this kind of connection that is more than blood.
Standards has always been a perception of other people.
You don’t need to be acknowledged by others.
What are your own goals?
No one owns your life.
You were born to live your own
But make sure you don’t forsake those who were born because of you
before getting the life you had forsaken.
Human beings are too shallow to understand fully the complex meaning of life.
Please bear in mind that you arent living to just earn money.
Why are rich people commiting suicide?
Why aren’t rich people satisfied from the luxurious things they have?
Why aren’t rich people happy with the money they have?
Because, someday as a part of your growth, you would understand what money can’t buy.
Something that you wanted through your entire life.
That is, a genuine love.